My Alter Ego And I Chatting.

It's funny, isn't it, how a day you do nothing but thinking, can make you feel totally worn out. If you can't even imagine, it feels like a never ending bad day.
deadlines combined with being worn out is a bad combo
ah yes, I can understand that
you just have to keep it together for a few more days
there is light at the end of the tunnel
have to set the grades tonight/early morning
so a few more hours
you're working late?
yup
this is why you get stressed - you need a regular sleep pattern.
true
and get into bed at a proper time
yeah yeah
you know.... I wouldn't know how to survive then. I need a couple of hours when I can choose my own sounds
can't you get those hours in the comfort of your bed?
I am so tired of hearing people eat.... the spoon and bowl, the slurp, chew, swallowing... I have come to hate the sounds, and it is never ending.
then drift off to sleep
the boys eat all the time, and it's almost like as if they have set their sound stuck in the walls.
stick an ipod in your ears
I fall asleep with it on every night
it's very relaxing
the neverending replay of cartoons with screaming characters.... characters in children's tv don't talk anymore, they scream
and yell
but that must have finished by now
and the pointless calling for the dog. LEAVE HIM ALONE! don't make him walk across the floor, clicking his claws against the wooden floor, just because you like to make the whistling sound I use when calling for him
petty, I know... and that makes me feel even worse
oh no, cartoon network has broadcasting 24/7, and my son just went to bed
you defiinitely need some me time
you have your own study?
or your bedroom
they should be your places of retreat
not my own study, but I do have a bedroom
that's where I would be
nature of my job and my coworkers don't really help either
you have to find your own way
your own space
(easier said than done)
yes
I have been thinking about writing my way out
The desperate Teacher  Mum inc
well, it might help to get it all out
there is an "and" there
cheap therapy
it's not easy finding a healthy life balance
heh... I probably should have taken the hints before the sound of someone eating a grape too loud makes me go nuts!

so, why was your day so close to perfect?
because I live alone
I do what I want
and I have satin sheets

Happy new year, 2019

First of all: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

And to you who read this: Thank you. Thank you for stopping by and read what I write.

It's close to midnight January 7, 2019. Already week 2, and it is clear I failed my resolutions with splendour this year as well.
I didn't do too good, before I went to bed on new year's eve I had already failed on at least three of my resolutions by watching a movie with my son, eating crisps, at 5am. Before I went to bed that is.
It was a nice bonding moment, but not good for sleeping habits, nor was it good for my plan of eating more healthy and less calories. By the time I should have gotten up, I went to bed, and missed out on percious me-time.

So another year was completed in history, another year was welcomed by bringing bad habits into the future.
New Year's Eve is always a day filled with serious thoughts. The year which passed by... How did I spend my time? Did I bring joy to anyone? Did I hurt anyone with my words? What did I do? What didn't I do? What should I have done?
The last day of the year is like an annual report on me to myself. Maybe not the best reference, but nevertheless food for thoughts.


2018 was a good year filled with really good experiences, celebrations, moments and days with family and friends. I cherish the ones I get to keep, and mourne those I have lost.
I have found joy in things my friends on social media have shared of their lives, art, photos, quotes and handcrafts. Stories and pictures from travels and everyday life. Discussions, both trivial wordings and more profound controversies. There is a silent satisfaction in knowing we can disagree and still be friends.

The year has given us sobering news and events from all corners. Disasters, war, misery and other alarming states we have inflicted on ourselves. I try to do my part when it comes to environment, but there is always a doubt in the back of my head: "Does it even matter?" We try to look away as we say someone else is to blame, but the truth has a way to make eyecontact, and I know that it all starts with us, not the politicians or important leaders of multi national companies. I am responsible for behaving in a manner which will make my world a better place. I am the one who needs to spend less, consume less and make sure my plastic and cans are disposed in a safe manner and not in the sea or the mountain.

Why must people fight and create war? Noone lives forever, what drives some to spend that measured time on finding enemies and inflict as much hurt as possible? What makes people capable of crushing people, cities, historic sites which has been standing for a thousand year? When did we lose the respect and knowledge of history?

The last of the year makes me think thoughts I wish I didn't feel I have to think. And yet, my thoughts wander and makes me look forward, to the future, and hopes and beliefs of new beginnings and other possibilities.

My hope for the New Year:
“For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge you’ll never walk alone.
We leave you a tradition with a future.
The tender loving care of human beings will never become obsolete.
People even more than things have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed and redeemed and redeemed and redeemed.
Never throw out anybody." ~ Sam Levensen


HAPPY NEW YEAR, I HOPE IT WILL BE YOUR BEST YEAR YET!

Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror (Official Video)

Something to think about.