The incidents I
face are varied. Let’s say I instructed the students not to open their
laptop (all my students have laptops, it is obligatory for them, and part of
curriculum, to use them as a tool). Because
they were watching a film, and I really wanted them to
get what the movie was about. I hardly ever show my students films, basically
because they’ve already seen most, and it is hard to make them concentrate for 90
minutes. Even though they love to watch movies, I get the impression they don’t
really watch the movies anymore; they multitask and keep the movie in the
background, watching like 4 seconds here and there, just often enough to get an
outline of the contents. Funny, exciting, thrilling, epic and sad moments are
missed out on… and they don’t really care.
Anyway, what
if two of the students didn’t care to follow my instructions. They started up their laptops, plugged in
their earplugs and watched music videos. So I told them to leave the classroom.
Not because they were disturbing anyone, but because I had told them. You see
where this is going? This is the run-up to the battle of strong will. I have learned, not by nature but by classroom management,
never to yield and back down. That being said: I also choose my battles
carefully.
What if they refused to leave… I
would stop the film and wait for them to leave…
which they won’t. The rest of the class
will be waiting, silently,
eyes flickering between me and the patient young man who stands his ground. (It never fails, it’s like they are
anticipating, waiting for the outcome of who has the stamina to follow through)
Time passes by, minutes by minutes. Oh, what an agony: Time passes by soooo slowly when you are waiting, I usually feel like just to give in but then again I know I shouldn’t.
Instead I would take the rest of the class with me to another room
to watch the end of the movie. This
time the two self-confident teens, sure to win the battle, tag along. When I refuse to let them in, one of
them leaves, but the other one
just didn’t budge; he wanted to stay in class (of course he did, my classes are
always like stairways to success and a
lot of monkey tricks involved… not. Emphasizing various learning
aptitude, you know… right.)
To make things worse (when I get annoyed things go bad
immediately) he had not learned what
he should have picked up by now: Learn when it is ok to shut up and keep quiet.
He just couldn’t keep his mouth shut. That last comment had to be said out
loud.
First he
told me to f___ off. My immediate response was “Excuse me? What did
you say?” He didn’t answer, so I
challenged him and told him to be brave enough to own his words. (I wasn’t
nice, I know.) Then he complained it wasn’t fair he had to suffer just because
I got my “monthly” and was smitten by pms.
Sometimes they are too proud, and they choose the
wrong cases to demonstrate their own free will.
It was rather uncomfortable for a while, but I am
never angry for long. Sometimes it is a problem to hold on to the state of
temper, especially when it isn’t a lot to gain from it. Anger, annoyance and
such is really a waste of time. Either you deal with it, and straighten the
situation out, or you forget about it. We had a calm talk an hour later, and it
was over and done with.
Thing is: they forget I have been in a classroom for
far too long to back down. I may come across as nice, but I have it in me to be
a bitch. And when it counts, no one is as stubborn as I am.
Right now I feel I am too old for this. I shouldn’t
have to deal with teen hormones and personal problems. I shouldn’t have to
raise them to be responsible adults. Dealing with their inroads and tantrums, often caused by
other impact than what they experience in school.
There is a lot
one can say about being a teacher. It is a profession which very likely becomes
a lifestyle, a lifestyle of constant awareness.
There is one
thing, though: It is NEVER boring. The entertainment value is sky high! And
yet: it is like as if we are chewing bones for the students who try to figure out
life. Yes, I am getting too old for this…
