I always bring a writing pad with me when I go to
meetings. Chances are there could be something important, I need to remember,
said. I don’t bring my Ipad, as I haven’t got one, and I don’t bring my tablet (I have a gorgeous Android tablet). Many do.
I, on the other hand, know myself well enough to know
I most likely will fall into the trap of “entertainment not on the agenda”, which is common to do.
I would play Sudoku, check on my Facebook for new
updates, write on my blog, check headlines on various newspapers… I see many
play Candy Crush and Farmville… even a game I never understood, but apparently;
if you tap the screen 1000 000 times the egg will crack… and something will pop
up.
Anyway, I got my writing pad and a pen. Very old
fashion, but I imagine it keeps me attentive to a much larger extent than if I
had some digital tool… or toy if you will.
But, and I am honest enough to admit this, so I should
not be judged too harshly: I doodle.
My mother is a skilled talker on the phone. She can
talk on the phone for quite some time. She doodles too. Her address book looks
like something out of this world because when she is out of free space, she
writes on top of what she wrote before. The pages are gradually turned blue and
black, little by little, through the course of each conversation. She
doesn’t make drawings or patterns; she writes words which catch her attention.
Over and over again, until another word stands out. Quite fascinating, as you
can follow the contents of her conversations by reading her doodling… if you
can single out the words, that is.
There is something rude about withdrawing into a bubble, excluding yourself from what’s going on and
embrace your own world. I think I pay attention, but sometimes the person next to
me plucks the pen out of my hand to add something he or she thinks is funny or
something I have missed or left out. For a split second I realize I to some
extent entertain those surrounding me, as well as myself.
I searched on Wikipedia for
doodling. It says that:
“A doodle
is an unfocused or unconscious drawing made while a person's attention is
otherwise occupied. Doodles are simple drawings that can have concrete
representational meaning or may just be abstract shapes.
Stereotypical examples of doodling are found in school
notebooks, often in the margins, drawn by students daydreaming or losing
interest during class. Other common examples of doodling are produced during
long telephone conversations if a pen and paper are available.
Popular kinds of doodles include cartoon versions of
teachers or companions in a school, famous TV or comic characters, invented
fictional beings, landscapes, geometric shapes and patterns, textures, banners
with legends, and animations made by drawing a scene sequence in various pages
of a book or notebook. Many geometric doodles are really subdivision rules,
where you repeat the same pattern over and over in a nested way.”
Seems to me my mother and I are classical examples of doodlers.
I am kind of relieved reading this, as I notice (and get confirmation) that I still pay attention, as doodling doesn’t steal my attention. It is rather harmless, as opposed to focusing on a game or a social media. So I stick with my old fashion writing pad.
I found one of my old writing pads the other day. On top of each page there are optimistic headlines in bold size and font, telling what the meeting is about, but then the rest of the page shows how fidgety my hands really are, and how busy my mind actually is.
There are symbols, like a heart, with additional supplemental features: legs, winking eyes, mouth, busy hair, a hat, a big smile… I have drawn caricatures of animals from behind. Entangled flower vines… quite pretty, but totally senseless and absurd. Yet kind of cheerful.
I don’t have any clue where I get it from; I don’t even really know how to draw. Being a teacher I am fully aware that most of us are kind of fully trained pastime psychologists. Well, no one can find out anything about me by trying to do some kind of interpretation of my doodles. They are, indeed, like Wikipedia says: unfocused and unconscious. It slightly worries me that it takes place when students are daydreaming or losing interest during class, but only slightly.
Since I have this interest in words, I thought I would see what Wikipedia says about daydreaming. There is something romantic about daydreaming, like the beautiful girl; resting her chin in her hand and gazes into nothing. Well, the explaination is not quite that romantic:
“Daydreaming is a short-term detachment from
one's immediate surroundings, during which a person's contact with reality is
blurred and partially substituted by a visionary fantasy, especially one of
happy, pleasant thoughts, hopes or ambitions, imagined as coming to pass, and
experienced while awake.
…the characteristic that is common to all forms of
daydreaming meets the criteria for mild dissociation.”
Ehm… dissociation? That doesn’t sound very attractive or positive, does it? Again Wikipedia:
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| "Boredome is whereas anxiety is a state of uneasiness and apprehension, boredom is a condition of mental weariness, listlessness, and discontent. " |
Further on, as I look up boredom, same source (A tiny bit embarrassing this, as I always tell my students to try other sources than Wikipedia: Find an authentic source, I tell them) with more worrying information:
“Boredom is an emotional state experienced when an individual is left without
anything in particular to do, and not interested in their surroundings.”
Did I just now
find out why my students are so eager to engage in social medias during my
classes? That WORRIES me A LOT!
